Well, I am done working at CBSA...may I never go through those doors again.

*sighs*...I can relax now...

Yesterday was fun, I stopped at work around 6:15- dropped off my card-key, grabbed another box for packing, and left. Went to Jon's watched the news for a few hours while he slept...we went shopping, I got my 3rd pair of shoes in two days...first time that I have ever owned even one pair of actually comfortable shoes...then we went to Subway for lunch. Kristy and Cory came over and we went bowling...Joe joined us later...he and Jon messed with their computers while Kristy, Cory and I played Apples to Apples..but it just isn't fun with three people...We watched Kate and Leopold...first time that Kristy or I had ever seen it...

Today Dad, Tori, and I went to IKEA to get some stuff for college...Now my account has, like, $10 in it so I have to wait until Tuesday before I can even think about buying anything else.

All well, I've been on long over my daily-online-time-limit, so I should be going.

I love you guys!

-kait

So, I have officially decided that I don't like this summer. I mean, I haven't even really had a summer. I've been working full time- yes, a full 4-0 hours a week, from 6:30 until 2:30 or later every day (except for the one day I took off for orientation, the two sick days that I've had, and the day that I took off to be with Jon when he went in to put Jesse down). I was supposed to learn to drive this summer. The closest that I've come has been steering while Jon digs his cell phone out of his pocket or something. I truly feel like I've accomplished nothing. And the worst thing is that with all of the money that I've been making, I'll barely have anything when college rolls around because my dad owes me money, so I'm going to have to push him to even get my basic school supplies and some of my clothes, and I'm crossing my fingers that my mom will buy my new contacts. I had to get my new glasses, certainly not a cheap endeavor.

All well, I need to get to doing my laundry so that I have something to wear to work tomorrow. I will say one perk though, has been working with mom last week. She actually keeps me busy, and the people on her floor are actually talkative and fun! Much better than the 6th floor. I mean, most of the time I'm just doing filing, but at least I'm up and on my feet instead of sitting on my butt staring at a screen, ya know? All well, I'm really off now, even though I really don't want to be. It's kinda depressing. Jon left half an hour ago, Dad and Tori are at church. It's me, the dog, and the cat in our dog, humid house. I have the strange urge to cry right now. *sigh* All well, I'll get over it eventually.

Lots of love,

-Kait

Let my life go farther than this....

Summer is here, and a wonderful summer it is. I still get up at 4, I go into work at 6:15, I sit in my grey box, accented by lime green and a few pictures, to stare at the old computer that they gave me, to type in name, address, and various number codes. The black and green screen, the uncomfortable chair, the day-in and day-out of it all. How do people survive? Lord, I pray that I never, ever get stuck in a job like this. How do people do this for 20, 30 years of their lives. After a two weeks I can literally feel all of my energy and joy getting sucked out of me.

When I'm not working, I'm catching up on sleep, getting sick, and going to the grad parties that I feel well enough to go to.

I was really looking forward to this summer, but now, I hate it. I try to be optimistic, but the need that I have for money is my only motivation to remain here. Why...I don't my spirit to be crushed by the world of grey that I've been shoved into. I miss having the time, energy, and feeling well enough to go on walks down by the river, to go walk around the Lakes...I want that back...